The Difference Between Good Fear and Bad Fear (and where I've been lately!)

Feel the fear and keep moving through it with breath...

Feel the fear and keep moving through it with breath...

Just a few months ago I got the download that something was really awry with my family's health. As the woman, I am the keeper of the family's health in terms of spiritual responsibility. That's how I see it, especially because I'm deeply in tune with my inner oracle, resource powerful herbs and plant-based nutrition and involve body-centered therapies that I can do, my Husband can do, or we hire out for.

But recently, I noticed my Husband's health deteriorating...and it gave me pause. Because he's a powerful healer and yet still he couldn't arrest these strange symptoms he was having. Combine that with my super extended post-partum leave after having my baby trying to heal my Thyroid and all the symptoms that attended that...and most recently I got a full-body rash...something. Is. UP.

We are not like this. We are healers. We are powerful. We heal ourselves and others. Wth is going on? I kept thinking. I believe everyone needs an outside eye for their own process, and I involved the guidance of a skilled Osteopath MD, and it turns out ALL our symptoms point to chemical toxicity.

What?? Us, who don't eat pesticides? Us, who don't use ANY chemical cleaners? She pointed it to an environmental toxin and after some research we found that the golf course behind our home has been exposing us to chemical run-off for two years straight.

You can imagine the fear that flooded my body.

I brought my 8-month old, my Husband and I to this place in total trust. Raised my baby here. Wondered why my exhaustion was not yielding to strength and energy. Wondered why my mental fog was so thick even when my baby started sleeping through the night. Wondered why my Husband kept on looking less and less like himself and more and more like a sick person does. And what might be going on inside of my baby that I don't know about??

I had to take a MAJOR extended break from work and serving clients in my purpose for these maddening symptoms, and all the while I thought it was ME. Some part of me that wasn't willing to be healed. Or whatever. I kept blaming myself all this time.

Turns out, we were being poisoned by irresponsible people.

Now I want to mention that we are on a powerful chemical detox that's made entirely from citrus pectin and algae and some other good stuff and we are doing great, feeling better each day, and getting ready to move house, so don't worry.

But really, I wanted to share this story because even though we have the solution, we are taking consistent, conscious, expedient and powerful steps, I'm still really afraid. My mind wants to wander, wants to fear the unknown. I switch from feeling totally held by the Creator (when I'm in my body and really breathing and moving with the fears) to feeling afraid (when I'm stuck in my head) that we won't find our next home soon enough, that my daughter will have some type of long-term side-effect we don't know about yet, that we won't be provided for in our next steps.

Every time I have these negative thoughts I know I am in my head. My whole body tenses up, the space between my eyes gets heavy, and my tummy contracts. That's fear based on believing untrue thoughts, the body is brilliant at giving accurate feedback, and this is how it does it.

When I'm believing the thoughts that I am provided for, guided, supported by an all-loving Creator, my whole body relaxes, my vision gets sharper, and I breathe deeper. When I feel the opposite, I simply have to move my body, even a little bit, and keep moving and deepening my breath and connecting with God as I move and pray. It all feels so right there. Right here in my body everything feels okay, MORE than okay. There is a divine Hand in all of this. Each time I step into this space, some new dimension of support reaches us; we get a phone call, an email or some other piece of good news or form of support to help us get into safety and into our next steps.

I've noticed that I am in fear of one thing that I think IS really healthy. I'm in fear of stepping out of alignment from my Creator, and what that Creator wants for me. The Creator in my understanding is a better Friend to me than I am to myself. And when I feel this healthy sense of fear of stepping out of alignment from what the Essence wants for me, it feels like a child who wants to be guided by her parent, it feels like awe and respect in my body, it feels like healthy submission to One who wants better for me, Who knows me, and Who created me and Who loves me unconditionally. I wouldn't want to disappoint Someone like that.

I'm so awed by this process, and really thankful I get to work on my deepest triggers of all time in this process of staying active toward getting us where we need to be, and allowing God to work divine magic in the situation. Because these are some of the deepest triggers I know; something challenging our health and safety and stability.

Meanwhile, I continue to serve my clients in-person and via Skype to assist them to prosper in their callings. And that work brings me so much energy and joy. Watching others soar reminds me of my true nature and give me tremendous energy. Serving others is true upliftment and brightens my path and illuminates my own choices.

If you'd like to learn about your body, your purpose and how it all ties into your prosperity, please contact me for a complimentary 15-minute consultation to discuss working together in one of these ways, dedicated and tailored to the one and only YOU:

The 2-Hour Miracle Session: this is a short and easy way to be introduced to my method and to get fast results on 1 core theme you'd like to shift in your life powerfully. It's been referred to by my clients as a miracle, pure magic for their lives.

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To ask for a complimentary consultation, just email me at paith@paithmacqueen.com and we'll get it set up.

Please note all programs are available via Skype and the work is just as powerful. You may also travel in town to work with me.

The investment for each program is shared during our consultation, and having a consultation is not an obligation to invest. If we both feel we are a match to work together, then I will share more about these programs and the investment at that time.

Also, I'd love to hear how you tell the difference between good fear and bad fear in your life? What does good fear mean to you? Please share in the comments below!

With all love,

Paith

Posted on July 12, 2016 .