Me + You
Hi, I'm Paith MacQueen. Nice to meet you! Just so you know, I'm not always this gussied up. I'm a mom, most of the time I'm covered in facepaint, food or mud. I spend my free time moving my body with yoga, freedance and hiking. I pray, I meditate. I commune with the Creator to be sure I am serving with my gifts in a way that will uplift the human spirit. I love being in my beauty and my power at the same time, and I grew up feeling really, really ugly. I wore a lot of second-hand boyish clothes and never really loved myself until recently.
You may have noticed that most of my photos here are glam, glam, glam.
I take a stand for women to be in their beauty and their power at the same time, however that looks for YOU
For me that means I take permission to be earthy with little-to-no makeup, to be a glamorous mamapreneur on a mission, or whatever serves my purpose in the moment. Transparently, if i filled this website with pictures of most days, I'd be covered in food, markers, playdough or sand while in the flow of a day of educaring for my sweet girl. I'm work an average of three days a week in my business, which allows me to truly show up as a mom the way that I desire; I get to be there for all the special moments. I'm insanely grateful for what I have. I know I am experiencing true prosperity with a healthy, brilliant daughter and genius, kind, supportive, spiritually-centered Husband. Some days I do think i'm going to tear my hair out because lets be real,
Life is designed to serve up challenges that grow us, not just be some cushy ride toward death
In the face of life's tests I find my center with all the Embody More tools I've developed for living a prosperous, feminine and free life which I share on my blog and with my clients in my group programs, workshops and private work.
But I want to tell you a story about a time I was REALLY stuck (maybe you'll relate in some way)...
Several years ago I went through a crisis of identity. Becoming a Mom was awesome. I had an empowered birth and delivery.
Before giving birth I had felt like this...
And I even felt empowered and incredibly high immediately after the birth for a few weeks!
But then, my old pattern reared it's ugly head
And it was embarassing because I had worked ALL of my twenties to overcome my childhood (in a passive-aggressive, emotionally abusive environment) and spent my early thirties reclaiming my femininity (after childhood sexual abuse by a neighbor) and getting authentic as I developed my Embody More Method through serving clients.
I had made $80,000 in my first 9 months in business
(and still took off 3 whole months during my first trimester for extreme morning sickness called Hyperemesis Gravidarum) , and helped 34 private clients to shift into their next level of life, business, love and creativity that year. I had combined my gifts as a healer and my background in the makeup arts to help women get Luminescent and show up in all their glorious beauty and femininity in their business videos. Then by popular demand I started mentoring women to become points of prosperity by switching them on and awakening their gifts.
I really knew who I was. In business, I was fierce af.
So what pattern reared it's ugly head in my life after having built up so much groundwork and carefully laying foundations for prospering and going against the inertia of my upbringing?
It was the part of me that is afraid I'm not worthy of success. That believes I deserve to suffer. And that hangs out directly in my blind-spot, so when I am truly beginning to soar, its commits major sabotage.
Heres what went down: after having an truly cosmic activation of my womanhood and power through naturally birthing my baby girl (and having birthed a very healthy and bouncing business baby) I invited a certain individual to come stay with my new little family just three short weeks after I gave birth. In the guise of 'getting help' with this new situation of being a mom so I could stay in my power, I had invited an emotionally abusive individual into my own home. For three. whole. weeks.
Can you imagine the devastation that ensued? I was a newly anointed mom, my chakras and body system were completely open, I was nursing around the clock, and mind you in this state a 15-minute visit with an emotionally-draining person can take you down....and I had someone 100x worse than that in my own home for full days, end-to-end, for what felt like an eternity. And I didn't kick them out. I wanted to, but I didn't follow through, I felt bad for wanting them out.so.much. So...
I felt like I had landed on the pavement
Fell from cloud nine. And I dragged myself across that pavement for a while, while my Thyroid dipped out of control, weight stuck to my body, I couldn't feel my hands, I couldn't remember a dang thing and was so exhausted that carrying around an 7lb 6 oz baby was hard, really, really hard.
I did get pretty stuck for a while there, but I did know I had mega tools from more than 10 years of working with clients in my Embody More Method based in using the body as the key to your awakening, healing and prospering in your purpose (see some snapshots below of videos from each iteration of my offerings as they evolved)
I had been my first and best client with my method once before.
And it was time to deeply revisit those tools and help myself get out of the depression and stuckness I felt after those 3-weeks of post-partum hell
The body doesn't lie. EVER. Do you have recurrent pain or injuries? Trouble sleeping? Feel a huge pressure on your chest when you are around certain people? There's something there to investigate. And if you listen in the right way
Your body will give you clues to unwind the emotional-physical blockages you're carrying within you that are preventing you from stepping forward into your next level of life, business, love and creativity
But back to my story, I realized that after the three weeks enduring abuse, my body went back to being a little girl. I felt powerless. I felt unresourced. I felt like something truly bad could happen at any moment, and I was always bracing myself. I was pouring, literally pouring ALL of my good energy into parenting my new little girl, and spent no time attending to rewiring my brain and body to remember who I really am. The fierce af business women. The powerful healer. The guide and mentor for the awakening of women's gifts and for their birthright to become points of prosperity.
Because of this I didn't see solutions that might have been staring me plain in the face. Sometimes I didn't even look for the solutions in the first place. I was stuck in a story of 'I deserved this somehow' (very much the story I had during my childhood). I did my best to become 'good enough' by serving my family and my daughter in particular with every ounce of my being, down to the very marrow in my bones (literally, give it up for the breast-feeding mamas!) But I had this lingering fear, this nagging pain that I was giving myself up as a soul, and that that was NOT acceptable.
The greatest betrayal is the betrayal of self
And there I was, feeling deeply betrayed. AND I knew it, which made it all the more worse. I think that it's 9,000x harder to be stuck when you're 1% away from living your genius life, than when you haven't even begun to do your 'work' and you're still a little ignorant of what you could have (remember those lovely ignorant days before you started doing your work? I sure do, LOL!) I knew what I could have, I had tasted it, I had lived it, not just the prosperity in terms of money, but empowered prosperity which means truly living in my calling and contributing to the planet through serving the women who came to work with me. That is a priceless experience.
I've found the major betrayal of self that I committed to be a priceless gift in itself, holy $%it have a I got a lot to teach mamas on a mission, and women about to make a big transition in life and business. I've effing been to the darkside of the universe and back. I know depression. I know immense sleep deprivation (oh did I forget to mention that my baby didn't know how to sleep for nearly two years? Yes. I know what it means to lose your mind to hallucination induced by lack of REM sleep). I know losing it ALL. And then finding the central, core KEY within my body that led me back to every other key I needed to unlock all the doors to my truth, to my authentic self, to my identity, and bring me back home to an empowered, prosperous state.
I got the chance to test out my Embody More tools in a really shitty rodeo, and while I felt like I got thrown face-down in the mud a few hundred times, it helped me perfect my method, to own it, to effing make magic out of it, and to yield it to the Creator from where I know it came.
I imagine that you because you are reading this that you are a modern-day shaman type soul just like me, and a lot of what I've learned about the body, beauty, purpose and prosperity has been through immense pain. Can you relate?
There's a glimmer in my eye now from that experience that cannot be bought. My soul is strong. (I bet you have that glimmer too. And if you can't see it now, I'm here to help)
For a while there, I didn't freaking want to serve anyone anymore, ever. I thought I was done with client work. I felt like saying 'eff it' to my calling and finding a way to settle down into motherhood nicely, and well-behavedly. And yet I couldn't. My soul came screaming out of that box saying 'No!!' Not because motherhood is not 'enough', but because I wasn't being truthful with myself. I love my purpose. I love how I'm here to serve. And it'll never let me numb out, the pull to my calling is too strong.
Not to mention, the stream of clients in my life that never cease to remind me of who I am and what I'm here to do, the bits of advice I'm asked for about healing emotional/physical blocks in the body, about building a prosperous life and business while resting back into the feminine...those questions and inquiries keep on coming.
And so I'm here to serve YOU, to help you embody yourself and heal the connection between femininity and prosperity in your own body, so you can prosper in your work with meaning, ease and grace
I'm back. And I don't care who knows it. I've got a job to do (thanks, Prince).
I feel like I experienced all this so YOU can benefit from it. So if you resonate at all with my story (not necessarily motherhood but certainly so if you're a mama on a mission) and if you are feeling majorly stuck in one or more areas, are getting slammed by life tests and personal sabotage patterns, are feeling so close to your brilliance being birthed on the planet, but finding that it seems maddeningly just out of reach...then my community is a place for YOU.
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